My roommate and I started talking about all these natural disasters as of late, and then she asked me what my plan is if there was a natural disaster here. I don't like to think about it and she was actually freaking me out a bit, but it did force me to think about it, which I think is a good thing. It's easy to go about your life and be inside your little bubble you create for yourself. It can be difficult to comprehend life outside of that at times.
It also made me remember that I am in control of how I react to things. I can choose to be in a bad mood or I can choose to be in a good mood. Wouldn't my life be less stressful, less anxiety-filled if I remembered to breathe more and relax? I can choose to educate myself or I can stay stagnant. I can choose to be happy. I can choose to actually live my life instead of letting diabetes take control. I can start taking responsibility for my actions instead of acting like things are just "happening" to me and it's "unfair." That doesn't mean I won't have those down days or won't be sympathetic to people who are down, but I am tired of being tired. I'm tired of being in a bad mood, of letting diabetes take over my body, my mind, my feelings. It's time to take back that control and it's time to remember the things I AM grateful for.
I'm grateful for my family, for my friends, my boyfriend...all the GOOD people in my life who are my support system. I'm grateful to have a job, to have a decent income and insurance. I'm grateful that I have running water and a place to live. I'm grateful to be safe and secure. And it's about time I focus on these positives in my life instead of letting the negatives run the show.