dinner plans

It's come to my attention recently that I still kind of eat like a college kid, especially when it comes to dinner. I'm not saying I eat ramen every night, but I don't put a lot of time or effort into my dinner. I take the time to make and eat a wholesome breakfast and lunch, but by the time dinner rolls around, I put together whatever is fast and convenient. I don't always eat a snack btwn lunch and dinner either, so sometimes I go 5 hours without eating and that really doesn't cut it for me. I used to eat big meals every few hours, but lately I feel like I need smaller, more frequent meals.

I find that when I don't have a plan and I'm tired and hungry, the last thing I want to do is put together a well-rounded dinner when I get home from work. The sad thing is I have tons of recipes saved--even recipes that claim to be quick and easy--so what's my deal? I just haven't had the energy lately. It seems easier to just make a sandwich wrap or mindlessly graze, which ends up being bad because I seem to no longer know how to give myself insulin when I do that. I seem to have no idea of how much fat or protein I consumed and what to do with my bolus. I'm not sure I even knew protein played a part until I read about it on a blog somewhere! The worst part is I feel guilty for being so lax about it and letting my blood sugars get into the 300s.

I feel guilty just writing that.

I know I need to start planning my dinners. I know this, but I don't do it! All I can do is take baby steps, I guess...maybe plan out dinner once or twice a week. I should mention that my parents live pretty close and I have dinner there at least once a week, and I know I will always eat well there...and the bonus is that I don't have to do anything! :) I also know that I need to start an elimination diet...and that will take even MORE planning. It's hard to put in the effort of planning when you have zero energy.