Apparently, I have a lot to say

Now that I've started this blog of ranting and raving, I can't seem to stop. But I don't care if that seems like too much. This is for me, not you. I need a place where I can get it all out and not be judged.

I finally decided to test out my Wii Fit Plus. I bought it almost a month ago and it's been sitting in its box, in my closet. So I dragged it out today, set it up, and got my workout on. I should mention that I used to hit the gym almost every day. As life (aka: work) got more stressful and I got dizzier (aka: blood pressure problem), I gave more and more excuses as to why I wasn't going to the gym. When I do make it to the gym nowadays, I don't have the energy or stamina to workout for very long. I also go through a lot more test strips because my BS (aka: blood sugar) falls so quickly, and I get paranoid I will pass out and no one will save me in time.

So I set up my Wii Fit Plus, half expecting it to tell me that my Mii character was obese. Thankfully, it wasn't. I tested out a lot of different exercises and ended up working out for about 45 minutes and burning 200 calories. I had to sit down twice due to dizzy feelings, but I kept going and was actually pretty worn out by the time 45 minutes had gone by. My blood sugar did drop (in a steady manner), so at least I know that I'm getting a somewhat decent workout. Plus, it's better than crashing on the couch, watching episodes of Psych and not moving until bedtime.

The good news: I worked out. The bad news: I forgot I had only 0.3 unites of insulin. SO when I bolused (aka: the insulin you give yourself before a meal) for dinner, the insulin I thought was going into my system was actually non-existent. I didn't think about this until maybe an hour later when it randomly hit me that my BS was going to skyrocket because I was supposed to change my pump and completely forgot.

Now, I know what you're thinking. You're thinking, Val, you've done this several times now. How could you let it happen again?

Well, it's not easy, okay? So, bite me. Just like everyone else, I have a million things going on in my mind. I have a LIFE, or at least try to. So, just like everyone else, I get distracted, put things off, and forget what I'm supposed to do. Here comes the tricky part. I have to remember how much insulin was in my system before, how much I actually gave myself (did I give myself all of the 0.3 left or was it already gone by the time I ate?) and how much of it is the non-existent insulin that never actually went through. While my pump may be a smart robot, it doesn't know this information. It does what I tell it to do.

So at this point, I can only guess and try not to make the same mistake next time.